I don’t know about you but the thought of breaking down gives me hives. Whether it is physically or emotionally. I’m strong. I’m confident. I’ve got it all together. I don’t need help. These are just a few of the lies that I’ve told myself. These lies have kept me feeling stuck or helpless or not good enough because if I am not strong, not confident and do not have it all together – then I must be weak, breakable or worse…not worthy. Nothing could be further from the truth. I am strong and I am confident, but I don’t always have it all together and I can always use some help. And I totally had a breakdown the other day…
My breakdown was actually an amazing breakthrough. I realized that it’s ok to show that I am scared, I am hurting, I am vulnerable, and I don’t have all the answers. As I sobbed on the sofa, I appreciated that we all struggle, fall, cry, get back up and sometimes even laugh about it later. This is what makes us real and worthy.
We are our strongest when we reach out for help. We are our most beautiful when we are real and don’t have all the answers or things get messy. We are being true to ourselves when we can claim our worthiness and still do not have it all together and are figuring it out as we go. Here’s the truth – no one has it all together. Some people just make it seem like they do.
I want real people in my life. I want true emotions. I want authentic conversations. I want honest love. I don’t want to be surrounded by people who pretend to have it all together. I want to be surrounded by people just like me – who are flawed and messy but trying to do things better. People who don’t know what they’re doing all the time, but they know they are following their hearts and have the best intentions.
Sometimes we have to take a chance, a leap of faith, a shot in the dark for the opportunity to live out a dream. My breakthrough helped me see that I may have to dismantle what’s not working in order to put something better together. It didn’t get put together all at once. Oh no, it was assembled one brick at a time and one piece at a time. And that’s how it has to come apart or unravel or even break…one brick at a time. One step at a time. One thought at a time. One moment at a time.
That’s where I’m at – breaking down the parts that aren’t working and figuring out how to put them back together in a different way. It may not be pretty at times, but it’s real and it’s mine. That’s all I can ask for and I’m damn proud of that.
So I ask you – are you with me? Are you strong, confident, messy, imperfect, loveable and ready to take the next step that could lead to the life of your dreams? Me too! Let’s take the step together and see what magic unfolds when we begin to dismantle one piece at a time.
“You can choose comfort or courage. You can’t have both.” Brené Brown
“Sometimes good things have to fall apart so better things can come together.” Marilyn Monroe
